"I always loved the view from here. It always felt like I was standing on the edge of the world, only a breadth away from the magnificent unknown that lies right beyond the horizon. Like some unseen world was just out of my fingers' reach."
Her toes inched ever closer to the edge of the rock face, winds from the sea below her buffeting her hair upwards and back.
"Lily..."
She ignored him calling out her name. Instead she closed her eyes and opened her arms, listening the sound of her sleeves billowing in the wind, like torn sails on a ship's mast.
"Did it mean anything?" she asked above the sounds of the wind, "The two of us, the time we had together, did it hold any place in your heart at all? Or was I just something to past the time?"
"I would feel much more comfortable if we talked about this standing away from there."
She didn't move. She merely leaned her head back and opened her arms even wider, as if she believed if she stood there long enough, the sea winds were whisk her away to this unknown that lay beyond the sea.
"This is the only place where I don't feel like my brain is spinning around in my skull. The only place where any part of my life makes sense any more. Even my dreams are confused now. I have no want to leave this spot."
"Lily, just come over here."
He sounded genuinely concerned. Of course he was. She was standing on the edge of a drop that only ended in waves and rocks. Her pallid, tear stained face would go against her being of any sound mind at the moment. Again, she didn't move. She didn't want to. There was nothing more to say anyway. Just questions that would never have any answers. Well, never any answers that meant anything.
Her foot slid, like something magnetic was pulling her ever closer to the horizon before her. Maybe the wind would carry her off after all. Just as the few pebbles beneath her foot plummeted down to the white capped waves below, she felt a hand on her outstretched arms jerk her backwards. She was suddenly pressed against his chest, his arms wrapped around her head. There was only the sound of the wind and the waves lapping below. She could feel him shaking. Something she had not expected. Finally his voice broke the silence, nothing but a strained whisper working its way out of his throat.
God I wish I had noticed this one sooner, damn me for not checking here often enough. Very good, reminds me of another story I wrote once :P. You did really good with this one.
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